100 Truths! After you've filled this out, tag 15 people and have them do the same.

at 4.15am, Thursday, August 18th 2011

1. last beverage→ Water, 1 glass

2. last phone call→ my sister

3. last text message→ Iwan, saying goodnight

4. last song you listened to→ FUCK YOU - Lily Allen

5. last time you cried→ almost everyday, I forget

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:

1. dated someone twice → I've never dating b4

2. been cheated on? → i've

3. kissed someone & regretted it? → Not yet..

4. lost someone special?→ my dearest friend, Ayu Sulis :'(( and the one who used to be my bestfriend [she regret being my friend for 4years]

5. been depressed?→ Always

6. been drunk and threw up → I Hate Drunk People

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

1. Pink

2. White

3. Maroon

THIS School Year HAVE YOU:

1. Made new friends → Of Course

2. Fallen out of love → dunno :p

3. Laughed until you cried → usually

4. Met someone who changed you → i have :))

5. Found out who your true friends were → YES !! and you're not, the one who threw me as a friend

6. Found out someone was talking about you→ Yes, *piiiip*. Fuck you bitch!

7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ never

8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → only few haha :D

9. How many kids do you want to have → Maximum, 3

10. Do you have any pets → yes

11. Do you want to change your name→ my name is beautiful :D

12. What did you do for your last birthday→ eat with fam at SUKUN

13. What time did you wake up today → 3am

14. What were you doing at midnight last night → I'm asleep

15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → I cannot wait for...my future soulmate and life

16. Last time you saw your father → just now, went work

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? → my family's economical, people stop mocking at me, slap all the bitches!!

18. What are you listening to right now → water splashing by my fishes

19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → No..

23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → face my daily life

24. Most visited webpage → Facebook

, youtube, and...*secret*

1. Whats your real name → Desak Putu Ari Noviadewi

2. Nicknames→ Desak, Sak, Novie, Sak Opik, Opik, oi..!!, eh, km, etc

3. Relationship Status →SINGLE

4. Zodiac sign → Sagittarius

5. Male or female or transgendered→ *what?!*FEMALE

6. Elementary? → SD No.2 UBUNGr

7. Middle School → SMP Negeri 10 Denpasar

8. High school → SMAN 1 Denpasar

10. Hair color → Black [actually, dark brown]

11. Long or short → Normal for girl :))

16. Height → 161 cm

17. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes

18: What do you like about yourself? my face, my smile

20. Tattoos → no

21. Righty or lefty → Righty

FIRSTS :

22. First surgery → never

23. First piercing → NEVER

24. First best friends → My classmate

26. First sport you joined → badminton

28. First vacation- Java

29. First concert → GKS

30. First crush → Someone in the JHS

49. Eating → I forget

50. Drinking → WATER

52. I'm about to → finishing my math homework

53. Listening to → noise here

55. Waiting on → the CHANGE

YOUR FUTURE :

58. Want kids? YES

59. Get married? YES

60. Careers in mind? related to English, taking picture with my BIG FAMILY and run my happy life

WHICH IS BETTER :

68. Lips or eyes → both

69. Hugs or kisses → Hugs, but kisses will do too ;)

70. Shorter or taller → Taller

71. Older or Younger → Older

72. Romantic or spontaneous → Both

73. Nice stomach or nice arms → both

74. Sensitive or loud → neither

75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship

77. trouble maker or hesitant → None of them

HAVE YOU EVER :

78. Kissed a stranger → no

79. Drank hard liquor → no

80. Lost glasses/contacts → no

81. Sex on first date → no

82. Broken someone's heart → i have :'(

83. Had your own heart broken → yes, always

85. Been arrested → no

86. Turned someone down → hmmm...

87. Cried when someone died → yes, my fam and friend's death

88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself → I doubt

90. Miracles → 50:50

91. Love at first sight → yep :D

92. Heaven → yes

93. Santa Clause → yes just when I get something from him :p

95. Kiss on the first date? → dunno

96. Angels → yeah

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → no

100. Posting this as 100 truths? → Yes... ahaha :D

Something, Unspoken Feeling about Stories

I don't know where to start. This is what I called unspoken. Your heart is the only one will understand it. That's why I feel like there's nothing to write when I wanna share my feelings and thoughts.

I run my life like anyone else run. I feel that everything I did is just right. But there's always something in something.

I know I'm such a stubborn, selfish, and never give up on my opinion. But, whatever or whoever you are, I think everybody deserve to have the same right, to be loved. I'm not talking about boys, but yes I do need a guy in my life of course :D [back to the topic].

I feel like everything I do is just a mistake. It's all completely wrong in their eyes. But if only you would know the truth why I'm doing it and all the reason, this misunderstanding wouldn't have happened so far, becomes an unspoken truth.

My close friends told me that they understand what I mean and they understand why would I do it that way, but I did it in wrong way. No, it's not wrong. I mean, I took the path which is more than 75% may hurt someone's feelings.

Realizing that the fact may let me lost my comrades, I tried to change my attitude. I tried to less talking about anything, but it made me feeling that I'm not me. I wasn't comfort with my new attitude. I felt like there's something might be better if I say my direct opinion. But the fact was worse than what I thought it would be.I should have realized it earlier, but I can't deal with time. Time goes on, and you just can't take back what you've said. And, the quotes : "Sometimes it's better not to say anything, than to say how you truly feel and make things worse" is just right. I should have continued to change my attitude.

"Be careful how you treat someone that cares for you because they might just walk away and never come back."That quote really happens to me. It is happening, I should say. I often fight with everybody whom I care about, just because of what I've said to them. I always think that it's just a misunderstanding, but I can't do anything to make it better. I just don't know what to do or what to say. And you know what? I need an hour [more] to write this note, because it is just not as simple as my mind works.

As your information, I swear I never plan on hurting others for my sake. I'm not that bad. Even if I hate those people who often hurt me, I will only have a thought if only they're vanished away from my life.As what my best friends used to tell me, I just took the bad path. This path will only hurt myself. Why? Because when someone whom you hurt them and they told this to their friend and then this is heard by someone who dislike you, the number of people who dislike you will increase as they told a bad thing about you, which they never even know about the truth. This is why I feel so complicated to run a life like my life. Everything I do is only a mistake, especially for them.

Well, now I've been trying to change my attitude. I've been practising to control my emotion and been trying to smile to everyone anywhere and anytime. Also I've been trying to be grateful for every second of my life, and it's working. I hope I'll be stronger to face my life with the troubles that I made it by my own mistakes.I know I'm not strong, and I'm not as strong as what you've seen on me. Because you only see what I choose to show you. I'm just an ordinary girl, and since I'm a girl, I'm very sensitive. I have a very fragile heart, which is very easy to tear it apart. You may be never have seen me cry, because I won't let you see me cry. I hate to show my tears because it will only make me looks so weak. You just don't know the time I'm crying. I often crying when there's nobody around, and before I sleep in the silent night.

From now on, I'll always try and do my best. I don't wanna hurt anyone. But if you hurt me so damn much and treat me like I'm a freak monster, I may be patient, but I don't know will I be patient anymore. hehe

I'm a human too, remember? Everybody has a limit in patience. Never let someone's patience over the limit :D

This Is Short of ME

Ok, 'bout my life. I'm an ordinary girl, run my life like any other.

I like to make friends, foreign friends are most interesting me.

In my life, I have less friend. I don't like a group, it'll just make discrimination. I only have few friends that close to me, which I called bestfriends.

My family, I live in an extraordinary fam. I dont regret it. Thing I regret is our relationship, especially with my mom.We often fight by something that shouln't be fought. She always make any excuse to defend herself that undirectly force me to admit that she's right.

I used as a private teacher to get some money. I wish I could run a cafe someday, and become a Minister of Foreign Affairs.

From the very beginning, my life's full of sadness and sorrow. I often betrayed by people. I often pointed on doing something that i didn't do it. Moreover, sometimes my efforts aren't appreciated, which make me upset as well.

Well, at 1st u may think that I'm unfriendly. But its not when you know more about me. I'm a caring type. You'll get my full attention if you can win a place in my heart.

Any questions? Call me.

My Favotite Quotes

#No matter what mood I'm in, when someone asks how I'm doing, I always say "Fine, how about you?"

#Sometimes its better not to say anything, than to say how you truly feel and make things worse

#Don't judge people by what others say about them. Judge them by what they say about others

#It takes a boy to love a million girls, but it takes a real man to love one girl in a million different ways.

#school = study. Study = books. Books = trees. Trees = logging. Logging = deforestation. Deforestation = Global Warming. Okay, stop school XD

#Sesekali perlu ngerasa gimana pahitnya hidup,agar bisa ngehargain kondisimu sekarang yg sebenernya udah beruntung banget

#The awkward moment when u look at your crush then suddenly he looks at you and u pretend that didn't look at him [that happens] LOL

#dearBOYS If you want to be TOGETHER with your girl, you have TO GET HER!

#Have you ever lived my life, or spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't, then tell me why you judge me like you do?

#Start of School Year: Brand new awesome folders, pencils and pens. ........ End Of School Year: 1 pen

#Don't confuse haters with fake friends. Fake friends just want to take advantage of what you've got, while haters really mean to hurt you.

#Don't spend your time chasing blessings. Chase God, and His blessings will chase you. Have faith!

#There is always a word "if" in each of regret and disappointment.

#Having few true friends is better than having a large network of pretentious friends. Quality beats Quantity all the time!

#senyum adalah cara untuk menyelesaikan banyak masalah. diam adalah cara untuk menghindari banyak masalah.

#Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by single person you thought would never hurt you.

#Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it's called the present.

#Don't trust too much. Don't love too much. Because that too much will hurt you so much.

#Don't tell me who I am because unless I wrote down all my thoughts on a piece of paper and hand it to you, you don't even know half of me.

#SpongeBob: What do you usually do when I'm gone? Patrick: Wait for you to come back. ♥

#Be careful how you treat someone that cares for you because they might just walk away and never come back.

#People say you don't know what you've got until it's gone. Truth is you knew what you had, you just never thought you'd lose it.

#Making a Friend takes a moment. Being a Friend takes a Lifetime.

#Dear boy, my care will be in heart, not in words, & my anger will be in words, not in the heart.

#I fall, I rise, I make mistakes, I live, I learn, I've been hurt but I'm alive. I'm human, I'm not perfect but I'm thankful.

#Rivers don’t drink their own water. Sun doesn’t give heat for itself. Living for others is the Rule of Nature.

#SMILE = Showing Miracles In Little Efforts

#What we want isnt always what we need & what we need isnt always what we want. That's why we're complaining more than thanking

#Although forgiveness is very hard, it is necessary. Holding onto anger and old hurts hardens your heart and hurts only you.

#Friend looks out for you, inspires you, laughs with you, cries with you, understands you, guides you and walks with you. And that’s you.

#"It's impossible," said pride. "It's risky," said experience. "It's pointless," said reason. "Give it a try," said the heart.

#Who am I? I'm me myself. Nobody can be like me & I can be like nobody. It's because I'm unique

#I may have forgotten to say that I care. I may have failed to open up and share, but my promise of friendship won't be broken